Doctor Death Returns

Yesterday was the first time since July 3rd that I had to see DD again. I have to see him every 3 months now for a year, oh boy oh boy! Just like old times, it took forever. I had a 1:45 appointment and we didn't leave till 3. It just still blows my mind that they can just make us sit and wait that long.

Well, I got to see him and we maybe talked for about 10 mins. He said that I look good and then gave me a prescription for some pills that I have to take for the next 2 years. The pills, in the most simplest explanation is, they keep the cancer away. So, I guess I'll have to take the darn things..LOL

All in all, it was a good visit cause I did get to see my nurses who had to rub my head. My hair is really kicking it in now. I felt like a loved puppy with all the petting going on. It did make me feel sad to see all the new faces sitting in those chemo chairs. That was the only part I didn't like about being there..seeing those people sick again and remembering when it was me in that chair.

There's going to be some car shows this weekend but I'm not sure which one I'm going to yet. I ask Amber if she wanted to go to Hell with me on 15th of Sept. They have a big gathering of Hearses in Hell Michigan then. So, I guess we're going to Hell then and making it a Mom and daughter trip. It should be fun!

Now Comes Miles Stones

Miles stones had now entered my life. Yes we all have them and take them for granted but now I can't. Since having cancer, mile stones are very important in my life. First there was Amber's wedding that I thought I wouldn't see. My baby all grown up taking her soul mate in front of God and others. Still brings tears to my eyes!

The next ones kinda weird but hey so am I. Last year Amber and I went to the Metro Cruise in Grand Rapids. The Metro Cruise is an event where the area cars..vintage, hot rods and any other thing on wheels, show up and park and cruise a 15 miles stretch of road. It's a huge event kinda like the Woodward cruise here in Michigan. Last year her and I went in the Jeep to meet our car club to sit and watch the miles of cool cars drive before us. Ken had his car and Amber got to ride in some of our club members cars. It was nice but I did say something to her which has now become a mile stone.

Amber, I said, if I get a hearse next year you and I are cruising this. She was so excited but I somehow knew I couldn't pull it off and perhaps this might be an empty promise. Well!!!! The hearse dream did come true and my daughter and new hubby are going to cruise with the best of them today! With being told that I had cancer in Jan. I knew that a car was out of my dreams..God works in wonders now doesn't he???

Our car club is all set up on 28th street for all of us to sit and watch and the guys have a BIG spot saved for us. This is a mile stone, this is going to be so much fun and yes..I'll post a few pictures of the fun. Here's the web site you can visit which will tell you more about the Metro Cruise..

I'm going to enjoy this mile stone with my daughter with a hot dog , pop and mostly with driving around in my car. Was the cancer a blessing? Who knows only time will tell but so far..it does look that way.

Amber's Wedding Part 2..maybe A Part 3 Next??

What a day!!! I can't explain all the emotions I had but I cried a lot. Ken and myself looked great and it was super to see all the ex family members and my family members again. Ken's daughters came and it was just lovely!

The sun took a dive for the wedding and it was slightly overcast which made it perfect! We helped decorate the alter and the chairs and shortly after that my daughter showed up. I believe I cried from the time I saw her till the time we went home that night. She was beautiful!!! I helped her get into her gown and cried..I cried on the way there..hell I was a sobbing mess(hahaha). Our first stop was at Speedway but not for gas for Kleenex..

I guess it all hit me..I made this...I fought the battle over cancer and made it to this day to see my daughter be married. Thanks to Ken who kept telling me I would. There is nothing like seeing this but I wish she was a baby again in my arms with the whole world ahead. I know they have the whole world ahead as a couple but still..lol

Ps..Next stop Grand babies..so they better get started..hahahahah

Here's some pictures with more after they get devolped..I promise..

Amber's Wedding Part 1

I can't believe that my daughter's wedding is happening. Thursday I went and had my nails done. I haven't had nail since they told me no when I started chemo. They said that my white blood count would be too low and I might get an infection with acrylic nails. I feel so much better now that I have them back. The ladies at the nail shop had thought I died, which I thought was funny.

Friday, was the day of Amber's rehearsal at the church. She and her girl's where getting their nails done so I met them at the nail place. I told Amber that I was taking the hearse but she didn't know what I was doing with it...

You wouldn't believe the stares and people laughing as I took the "Bride's last Ride" to the nail shop. Amber was so surprised and happy that I had did that for her. I made Am wear some thing I brought for her..
Here's some more pictures at the church, wedding party, Amber and her Dad and some of me and the kids. Tomorrow I'll have some more up. We had a great time and the hearse was a super hit with the bride and groom....

Hair Today Gone Tomorrow

Well it's been two weeks since I've returned to work and it sucks..LOL. Ok, I missed it but not that much. The new company that took over cut my pay and raised our health care payment. The lunch room has become a warehouse and they ripped up the gym and it's used for storage. There is so much crammed into this plant that they are now using the parking lot for rack storage. I can't believe it has turned into such a place but it does pay me and I have health insurance.

With Amber's wedding this Saturday I thought I'd go to this shop in Zeeland that carries wigs and stuff for breast cancer ladies. It was a lovely shop full of hair. I didn't want a wig, I just wanted maybe a scarf to wear with my dress. Amber told me I didn't need hair, that she loves me just the way I am.

The lady sitting there started asking me questions and I told her I just wanted a scarf. The prices on the wigs ranged from 150 to over 300. I told her that for a one day thing I just didn't want one. I never wanted one from the start and I didn't feel I needed one for the wedding...I just want a scarf. Well, they didn't have a scarf and the lady said things to make me feel bad about how I looked so I'd buy hair from her.

Just think of how you'll look in pictures or your daughter would feel better if you looked better with hair. I couldn't believe what was coming out of the mouth of this person who should be supporting breast cancer patients. Personally I feel pretty damn good about how I look, I just wanted a little something nice to wear..not a 200 dollar wig that I would not feel like myself in.

I left that store feeling badly about myself till I got about half way home and realized that she just prayed upon my self esteem trying to make a sale. I should have gone back and given her a piece of my chemo brain but I figured I better not. I am proud to be bald..I will not let this poor women get the best of me. I will hold my head high at my daughter's wedding and be proud of her. I know my daughter is proud of me and is happy to have me around, hair or no hair.

Cancer sucks but the people who deal with cancer patients shouldn't. That's my two cents on that and I'll get off my soap box now and enjoy my daughter's wedding..

Starting New Again

I started work all over again new. My first day back no one really knew who I was which was kinda sad. Yes, I did get some people who recognized me but most didn't. Day two wasn't much better either and I couldn't figure out why. I hadn't changed much except for the hair and maybe a few extra pounds but I was still me. On day three I did something which changed everything..I wore the green baseball hat. The dirty, ripped and mostly worn out hat was me!! Everyone smiled and realized that it was Chris and she was back. That's so funny how a hat can be the thing that people recognize you with.

It is great being back to work but I'm tired. It's so frustrating that I can't remember things about my job. I know I'll learn again but it was just wiped out by chemo. Even the names of people I've forgotten! But I love shipping and I love being there. As they say..It's good to be alive.

My whole out look has changed now, when it was so hot at work people complained but I just thought this was way better then chemo. When they complained about things at work or in their lives I kept thinking how great it was to be alive to feel those things. It's is good to be here, alive, tired and hot! I won't take those things for granted again. Live, love and laugh. You don't understand those things till you face something that could take them away.

Next week is my daughter's wedding and I have to settle down and buy a dress. I've been putting it off cause I hate shopping and cause I've been busy with the hearse. Yes, I did get it and I love it. It is so much fun and I've wanted one for such a long time so why not. Someone asked me at work if I bought it cause I was dieing and I was picky about what I rode in when I die. I just about peed my depends..LOL






So, I'm going to keep this blog going and I'm glad you guys have enjoyed it. It is fun and I'll keep it going for as long as I can. Remember..get out there and enjoy whatever it is your doing!! Life is tooooo short....